As long as I was on the subject of insomnia, lying awake waiting for the wolf of the middle of the night to nip at my heels, I thought I would add another piece about lying awake and thinking of all the wrongs in my life and the what might have beens. Still, writing this has helped me understand that I can use those what might have beens to help understand what is and what may yet be.
'Emptiness'
'Hope is a waking dream.' --- Aristotle
I lie awake wanting the image to come back to me,
yet knowing it will not.
If I could reach to you again,
perhaps we might both forgive,
yet I know you will not.
I linger in the restless night hoping for resolution,
but knowing it will not come.
If you could understand what I feel
then we might both let go,
yet I know I have not.
I lie awake, but your image fades
as I knew it would.
If I could just sleep,
perhaps we shall both meet again,
yet I know we will not.
C.
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I like how it's called Hour of the Wolf - I hate being awake at that time of night (morning). I feel like I'm the only person in the world who's alive.
madameboffin: well, since we are on separate continents, I am likely awake at that time :) I sort of like the feeling though... when I don't need to sleep of course.
kate: as always, thanks so much :)
I suffer from insomnia from time to time, so I can relate. And isn't it in those quiet, lonely moments that regrets come back to haunt us? I know those moments well, though I doubt I could encapsulate the feeling so succinctly.
One of the worst feelings I ever experience is the whole sleepless night thing, or waking up with a feeling of unexplained dread or worry. It's the worst.:(
sqt: yep, those quiet moments can be the worst... though sometimes they can be inspiring.
janet: sometimes I just won't sleep to avoid it... but then that can be problematic too.
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